That’s how long Marcus was a part of my life this afternoon. He was one of those little brown hot dog-type dogs with big floppy ears. I don’t know the name. I saw him from the trail head, across a street, in the parking lot jumping out of his owner’s car. He bounced out, tongue hanging and ran across the road to where I stood on the trail. Then his owner called him back and obedient as Marcus was, he went. And then the big, black pickup truck came screaming down the quiet road.
We all froze. There was nothing to be done. The truck didn’t bat an eye, didn’t slow down, didn’t stop. I saw Marcus transition from being a carefree, hot-dog puppy into not. All in 8 seconds. Continue reading →
And I mean – acclimating to Santa Fe! I forgot how dehydrated the desert/mountain air makes me. I’ve been back for one week exactly and had persistent headaches which finally started to go away mid-week. But in the spirit of not being hard on myself, I took a good look back at what I managed to do this past week instead of focussing on all the things that fell to the wayside.
I’m feeling very woe-is-me right now. My flight from Denver to Santa Fe should have left at 7 p.m. and it’s almost 10 p.m. now … bad weather in Colorado. I had three hours earlier in Chicago to sit around as well. The upside is that I’ve watched the entire season of the Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt. Her ridiculous enthusiasm managed to get me through the bulk of this… And now I’m looking around at some very productive people working hard on their laptops and tablets. No one else around me seems to be whining or complaining – at least not externally – so I should buck up!
I’m finally getting back to Santa Fe after almost 3 weeks in NY/NJ and a week in Chicago for a conference (more on that later).
The best way to describe how I’ve been feeling is … depleted. Like not enough left to give to others or even to myself. When I feel like this, I just want to hunker down and try to figure out how to regroup and get back my “more normal” energy and enthusiasm for life. Really, this post is all about getting myself away from this cranky, morose, and hollow person I’ve become over the past couple of weeks.
1. Get healthy. I’ve definitely been sick so that hasn’t helped. I wound up changing all my plans for my first week back east – missing a few days in NYC and a one-day writing class, forgoing a trip down to D.C. and a related conference … I even caved and took a dose of antibiotics. Things are turning the corner (finally!).
2. Start. I need to study for the Series 7. For those who don’t know, it’s a 6 hour securities licensing exam. I never needed it before and it shouldn’t be a problem – I somehow managed to study for and pass all 3 insanely hard sections of the CFA – but I’m dragging my feet. Maybe just the thought of looking at words like bonds, options, and equity reminds me of the world I left behind when I quit my job in 2012. And here I am! I need to pass the 7. There’s no two ways about it. So, I finally cracked open the book yesterday and listened to a handful of online tutorials. And you know, it wasn’t so bad… Continue reading →
Leaving New Mexico today for about a month. I’ll be on the east coast mainly with a conference in Chicago as well. But I don’t want to forget the many ways in which I’ve enjoyed Santa Fe life these past couple of weeks. This way, when I do forget and feel annoyed, I can look back and remind myself as needed.
1. Writing my book. I’m all in. I’ve a few more passes to go on my middle grade fantasy and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve also had the pleasure of getting more involved with the local SCBWI (Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators) chapter. Not only have I begun to make more friends and contacts, but I’ve also had the opportunity for some third-party critique of my writing. Really invaluable. Continue reading →
It started with the iOS 8.0.2 – or whatever number – upgrade on my iPhone. Yes, I love my iPhone, but the upgrade caused thousands of my Gmail account messages to be marked as “unread”. Thousands. I called Verizon and, though the guy was very nice, he couldn’t help me. He gave me a number at Google but he warned me that they would just direct me to a help page online. I tried. He was right.
Later, I discovered a scratch on my iPhone despite all the love I give it. :(
Apple and Google don’t care about me. They’re so big, they have no reason to care. It doesn’t matter to them if one person is unhappy with their products and services. The worst part is that I get it, and I have no choice to but to accept it.
Last week, after waiting almost 5 days to hear back from someone on a personal level, I texted. On a positive note, I heard back from the person right away. On a less positive note, the news definitely left a bad taste in my mouth. Still, better to know, right? I think so. Continue reading →
I’m waiting for things these days. A phone call. An email. I find myself constantly refreshing screens and annoyed when nothing new comes up or stuff comes up that isn’t what I’m looking for … I know if I really want to be in touch with someone or get a response, I could just email/text/call myself, but somehow, it doesn’t feel like the right thing to do. And so I’m stuck in limbo.
My editor at Debtwire randomly sent this quote along as part of a work update:
“Patience is not simply the ability to wait – it’s how we behave while we’re waiting.” — Joyce MeyerContinue reading →
So this season of The Bachelor made a stop right here in Santa Fe, New Mexico. Now this should be a moment of excitement or pride for the State (maybe?), but in actuality it was quite funny insight into the Bachelor contestants. Really, I can’t write anything better than what this little clip courtesy of Ellen shows :
Getting out of the country? Really?
On a more positive note, I’ve been loving my time in Santa Fe and am making progress getting more connected and enjoying what New Mexico’s capital city offers me. Continue reading →
I still don’t have the swipe left, swipe right thing down for Tinder. But no need. Just a careful click of the “i“, a quick scroll through some pictures and maybe a minute to actually read the bits of bio provided, is sufficient enough to make me a threat.
Add in a gal pal who is fairly ruthless when it comes to “getting me out there” and I elevate quickly to a triple threat.
So I try to find the fun, the “woo-hoo!” when “It’s a Match!” comes flying up on the screen – basically meaning you both picked each other based on some pictures and tiny, useless information.
Are relationships really based on much more than 140 characters these days? I’m not sure. But this is my life now. Why not embrace it? Continue reading →