The best way to describe how I’ve been feeling is … depleted. Like not enough left to give to others or even to myself. When I feel like this, I just want to hunker down and try to figure out how to regroup and get back my “more normal” energy and enthusiasm for life. Really, this post is all about getting myself away from this cranky, morose, and hollow person I’ve become over the past couple of weeks.
1. Get healthy. I’ve definitely been sick so that hasn’t helped. I wound up changing all my plans for my first week back east – missing a few days in NYC and a one-day writing class, forgoing a trip down to D.C. and a related conference … I even caved and took a dose of antibiotics. Things are turning the corner (finally!).
2. Start. I need to study for the Series 7. For those who don’t know, it’s a 6 hour securities licensing exam. I never needed it before and it shouldn’t be a problem – I somehow managed to study for and pass all 3 insanely hard sections of the CFA – but I’m dragging my feet. Maybe just the thought of looking at words like bonds, options, and equity reminds me of the world I left behind when I quit my job in 2012. And here I am! I need to pass the 7. There’s no two ways about it. So, I finally cracked open the book yesterday and listened to a handful of online tutorials. And you know, it wasn’t so bad… Continue reading →
Leaving New Mexico today for about a month. I’ll be on the east coast mainly with a conference in Chicago as well. But I don’t want to forget the many ways in which I’ve enjoyed Santa Fe life these past couple of weeks. This way, when I do forget and feel annoyed, I can look back and remind myself as needed.
1. Writing my book. I’m all in. I’ve a few more passes to go on my middle grade fantasy and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve also had the pleasure of getting more involved with the local SCBWI (Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators) chapter. Not only have I begun to make more friends and contacts, but I’ve also had the opportunity for some third-party critique of my writing. Really invaluable. Continue reading →
It started with the iOS 8.0.2 – or whatever number – upgrade on my iPhone. Yes, I love my iPhone, but the upgrade caused thousands of my Gmail account messages to be marked as “unread”. Thousands. I called Verizon and, though the guy was very nice, he couldn’t help me. He gave me a number at Google but he warned me that they would just direct me to a help page online. I tried. He was right.
Later, I discovered a scratch on my iPhone despite all the love I give it. :(
Apple and Google don’t care about me. They’re so big, they have no reason to care. It doesn’t matter to them if one person is unhappy with their products and services. The worst part is that I get it, and I have no choice to but to accept it.
Last week, after waiting almost 5 days to hear back from someone on a personal level, I texted. On a positive note, I heard back from the person right away. On a less positive note, the news definitely left a bad taste in my mouth. Still, better to know, right? I think so. Continue reading →
I’m waiting for things these days. A phone call. An email. I find myself constantly refreshing screens and annoyed when nothing new comes up or stuff comes up that isn’t what I’m looking for … I know if I really want to be in touch with someone or get a response, I could just email/text/call myself, but somehow, it doesn’t feel like the right thing to do. And so I’m stuck in limbo.
My editor at Debtwire randomly sent this quote along as part of a work update:
“Patience is not simply the ability to wait – it’s how we behave while we’re waiting.” — Joyce MeyerContinue reading →
So this season of The Bachelor made a stop right here in Santa Fe, New Mexico. Now this should be a moment of excitement or pride for the State (maybe?), but in actuality it was quite funny insight into the Bachelor contestants. Really, I can’t write anything better than what this little clip courtesy of Ellen shows :
Getting out of the country? Really?
On a more positive note, I’ve been loving my time in Santa Fe and am making progress getting more connected and enjoying what New Mexico’s capital city offers me. Continue reading →
I still don’t have the swipe left, swipe right thing down for Tinder. But no need. Just a careful click of the “i“, a quick scroll through some pictures and maybe a minute to actually read the bits of bio provided, is sufficient enough to make me a threat.
Add in a gal pal who is fairly ruthless when it comes to “getting me out there” and I elevate quickly to a triple threat.
So I try to find the fun, the “woo-hoo!” when “It’s a Match!” comes flying up on the screen – basically meaning you both picked each other based on some pictures and tiny, useless information.
Are relationships really based on much more than 140 characters these days? I’m not sure. But this is my life now. Why not embrace it? Continue reading →
I had a moment of total terror last night. I’d been having excruciating pain for a few days and finally had to give in and get to the Emergency Room. I have to say, I was so glad I was with one of my best friends on this unforeseen adventure. There was a super low point in the wee hours of the night when I was sure the news would be treacherous. I thought to myself, over and over, “It’s okay, Jody. You’ve had a great life.” The pain was that bad and the fear was that much worse.
Turns out it’s not life-threatening, though still something I need to contend with. What I realized through all of it was how awful it is to touch the healthcare system in the U.S. for fear of what everything is going to cost. I still have no idea how much this adventure will set me back, but will just deal with it when “my portion” comes due in the mail. Continue reading →
So I’ve been in San Francisco this past week for a couple of conferences. Let me sum it up by saying they were overwhelming and exhausting. I’ve never in my life seen so many people turn out for conferences/networking/parties. Clearly if you’re involved in healthcare, San Francisco is the place to be. And the ticket to have is access to the J.P. Morgan Healthcare Conference. Who knew?
I also attended a one-day Health 2.0 conference and did a few one-on-one interviews so, needless to say, it was a totally exhausting week for me.
Now that that’s behind me, I need to refocus on this city and looking at it with the eyes of “home”. But strangely, I’m not quite feeling it yet. To be honest, I kind of miss the quiet, mellowness of Santa Fe, New Mexico. At first, when people kept asking me where I was from, I felt apologetic having to respond with Santa Fe as my answer. But as the tiring week wore on, I started to love having something unique – an answer different from NY, D.C. or San Francisco. Continue reading →
On Heart. On Work. On Home. On Money. On Health. On Friends.
I woke up yesterday morning feeling a bit sad.
Here it is the start of a new year and it’s one I’m so looking forward to for so many reasons. Yet, there’s no denying that I was sad.
I think it was because I was leaving my parents house in New Jersey and heading back to Santa Fe later in the day. I got used to being “home”. It’s always easy to fall back into the quiet, uneventful, secure rhythm of life in Rockaway, New Jersey, but especially easy during the holidays. The week between Christmas and the New Year is my favorite time of year. It’s the one time where everything just seems to stop. Nothing but stillness as the world around me resets itself and the days seem endless. But it’s over now.
Now, I need to shift my attention forward and refocus on life balance and all the things I’m excited about in this coming year. Continue reading →